mickeym

I've been pretty removed from all things fannish lately. A combination of trying to get my big bang finished and also just the sheer amount of mental/emotional energy that unemployment/job-hunting/living at poverty level brings.

To tell the truth, I had so much trouble writing my big bang that I was honestly afraid that I'd reached the end of my fannish period for SPN. I've wondered for a while now, because I just couldn't bring myself to care much about anything to do with the show or the actors or the characters since the finale. Part of it is my RL stuff. But part of it, too, is a combination of the gut-wrenching ending we got for S5 and the whole twisty mess of getting over-involved with RPF. However happy I am that the guys seem to be happy getting married and doing their newly-wed thing, there's still a tiny part of me that will forever wish there could really be a Jared-n-Jensen. *shrug* I am in touch with reality enough to know there won't be, but I wish there could be.

I've been in SPN fandom now since early in 2006, which puts me at about 4.5 years. The fandom has changed a LOT in that time. Not for better or worse, just change, but any of y'all who know me know that change often shakes me up. So I figure some of my ambivalence toward fandom and SPN is probably due to that, as well.

I'm not ready to be done with SPN -- and fortunately, I don't think it's ready to be done with me. I rewatched the S5 finale earlier, and cried, which I like to think I wouldn't do if I didn't still feel invested in it. I want to write more. I want to get involved again. In some ways, I feel like I'm starting all over with it, because so many of my friends that I met through SPN have moved on, or disappeared, while I'm still here. I hope things pick up again once the new season starts, but even so, fandom in general is kind of all about new beginnings, isn't it? No matter what your particular fannish interest and when/where you start, there's always a beginning there somewhere.

I've seen a lot of posts and comments scattered around about stuff that came out during ComicCon. Spoilers for S6, pictures, panels -- if anyone could point me toward specific posts, or PM me with information, I would love you forever. Don't put spoilers in the comments, please, because I know a lot of my friends are not spoiler-friendly and I don't want to inadvertently ruin things for someone else. But links are good, or, like I said, a PM with all the info you might have :)

Surfacing from post-posting coma to wave hello and thank everyone who's left comments about my Big Bang. Tomorrow is the take-mom-to-the-airport (in Nashville, oi) day, but then I can start doing things again, like answering comments! :)

Mostly, though, this post about the craziness of people. Of fans. There's a good chance y'all have already seen this around, but I'm very behind on LJ. Just in case you haven't, here's the low-down: there's a comm, spn_legacy, who wants to do a book of fan work: art, fiction, etc., and present it to Kripke, et al, of Supernatural.

If you don't want to be a part of this (or to tell the OP why this is a horrifically BAD IDEA), go here.