I am asking for help with my rent

Some of you got this as an email, but things are happening now that are making it even more urgent.

Our rent payment for May bounced. I need $1,146 as soon as possible. We got our "seven day letter" on the 10th. Well, I got an email copy of it. The actual letter hasn't arrived yet, go figure. I spent a good chunk of my day yesterday at the Helping Hand of Hope, applying for emergency rental assistance. They can't grant me anything until they've spoken with my property management company. The woman Matthew and I met with made the call to LREI while we were in her office. She asked on the message for them to call her back by 3:30. That she can't do anything for me, until she talks to them. She said she would call us to let us know how much they could give us, but she didn't call. I have no idea if we'll still get any help from them, because of it taking so long.

Now for the why. I don't know for sure, won't know until Matthew starts therapy and gets officially diagnosed. But I'm pretty sure he has a sex addiction. Porn, sex, all of it. It's been hovering there, in the background, for a while, slowly escalating. Well, he hit a new low. High. Something. And he ran through a pretty impressive amount of money in the first week of this month. I don't know how much, exactly, but for sure over $700. Which is a staggering amount of money, truly.

Matthew will start therapy within a week. We started the paperwork tonight (Tuesday night), and then I hit a snag with the signing box (naturally), so now we have to wait until morning to call them to figure it out. If you want to check it out, it's www.astrabh.com. I'm going to start therapy with them as well. I need to sit in on some of Matthew's sessions, probably, but I need it for my own stuff. I could stay with Rhonda, but she only sees patients twice a week. Plus, Rhonda is safe and comfortable. If I'm ever going to be able to tell my son NO, or learn how to set boundaries, and other healthy behaviors, I need someone who isn't safe or comfortable.

Anyway. What I owe breaks down to this:

Rent: $1,010
Bounce Fee: $35
Late Fee: $101

If there's any chance anyone can help me out, I would be beyond grateful. I applied for a loan, but I don't know that I'll get approved (I was turned down for a "pre-approved" thing, and am waiting on a phone call from a loan specialist). I don't know if my Mom or sister can help us this time. (And the update on that is no, they won't.) I'm going to try the Salvation Army, as well, but I'm not holding out a lot of hope here. If you can't, I understand that. Keep us in your thoughts, or send positive energy. It's all appreciated.

If you can help, send it to my Paypal (paypal.me/kimandmattg6794). I've taken the card away from Matthew -- all of the cards -- so you don't need to worry about that.

I know I've asked for help a lot. I'm really hoping that we can get on our feet and I won't need to ask for anything from anyone, and in fact could maybe help others, at some point. But right now, I pretty desperately need help. Not just for the rent, though that's the critical issue, but for June as well. Because, in trying to to cover other things, I've overdrawn my checking account by $1300. That's all of the money I get for the month. Once we pay rent for June, I'll have $217 to get me through the month.

Please help, if you can. Feel free to share this post, or link to it. Anything you think might help.

Thank you,

Kim

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