thinking is hard, and owning it sometimes hurts

[mickeym]

So I made a mistake with the way I worded things in the (now deleted) previous post. I shouldn't have said "everyone should", and yeah, I'm sorry. Having the choice to make choices, to make our own decisions...that's what defines freedom, I guess, and I have no right to assume what I feel is right, nor to tell everyone they should think/feel the way I do. I also guess I really am still naive enough to wish everyone could agree, get along, know the same thing, that there weren't so many of my friends on both sides of whatever this thing is.

I don't know what to think about what's going on, and I still don't believe we're hearing everything from either side. I know I hope there's just been, I don't know, a misunderstanding. Or that there's an elaborate joke being played on someone (though if that's the case? Shame on the person(s) playing the joke).

I spent the first part of this day cranky from heat and swollen ankles, and I'm spending the second half of the day feeling sick to my stomach and like I want to cry. Like something's ending, or about to, and I don't even know that it is. Not sure even that the feeling like I want to cry part is even necessarily really related to anything fannish or just life in general.

I do still hope people will read the links starting to show up all around.

Comments

[fleshflutter.livejournal.com]

I didn't see your earlier post and that doesn't matter to me. What matters is that I hope you're not feeling too rotten. You matter a lot to a lot of people. I think sometimes you need to be reminded of that. ♥

[lizliz.livejournal.com]

I didn't see your earlier post, and I apparently missed all the kerfuffle, but as far as I can tell a bunch of people are whining about getting a C&D letter for their website? And this makes Jensen evil? Or something?

[withdiamonds.livejournal.com]

I think you've summed it up perfectly.

[rainbow.livejournal.com]

Color me clueless, but I love you.

ETA: er... is that worded as badly as I suspect it might be? I am brainfogged today and achybacked.

I don't love you *because* I'm clueless or anything. I just love you and have no clue what's up.

*nod* *blush* *snuggle*

C

[zillahseye.livejournal.com]

Somebody must be shutting down a lot of links, because I keep clicking and getting "You are not authorized to view this private entry", even on entries that had been open earlier. Which means that I have only the vaguest idea of what's going on.

[quiet000001.livejournal.com]

Yeah. My flist is littered with "I deleted a previous post" type stuff.

[kaelie.livejournal.com]

No idea what is going on, but I hope you are feeling better this afternoon.

[geneli4.livejournal.com]

i don't think i know what this is about, and i didn't see your earlier post... i also haven't seen any links to anything that seems like a two-sides to any story sort of thing, so i'm completely in the dark, but i hate that you're hurting over whatever it is. *sends hugs*

[scot-ty.livejournal.com]

Sorry this has been such a crummy day. Hope it gets better. *hugs*

[tabularassa.livejournal.com]

♥

[umbo.livejournal.com]

Can't really follow what's going on, but do send love and hugs to you!

[benitle.livejournal.com]

*cuddles* Honey, I think that everyone who knows you knows that the original post was a spur of the moment post that was written when you were really emotional about this matter. Don't be so hard on yourself. ♥

[withdiamonds.livejournal.com]

I missed your original post, but I think you can safely blame it on the heat. Just feel better, okay?

[ex-rosegany.livejournal.com]

People are sometimes stupid. And sometimes they are amazing.

You are amazing. Feel better. *hugs*

[digitalwave]

Sweetie,

Don't beat up on yourself so. I for one can tell you that I know that you're sweet, giving and talented and I'm really happy for the chance to get to know you better.

*hugs*