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Fandom: Supernatural
Pairing: Dean/Sam-ish. If you squint.
Rating: None

Just a little something that poked at me 'til I sat down and wrote it out. Enjoy :)



If anyone ever asked him, Dean would say he loves his life.

He loves the hunt, the chase, loves killing as many of the evil sons-of-bitches as possible.

Not all the spirits or beings they hunt are truly bad, but a troubled spirit can cause as much trouble as something intentionally evil…and the ones that are intentionally evil are the ones Dean delights in killing.

If anyone ever asked him, Dean wouldn't ever admit to it, but sometimes he pities the things he hunts. He hopes they find whatever peace they can, after he's sent them on.

If anyone ever asked him, Dean would tell them family is everything to him. Everything he knows, everything he trusts, is contained in two words: Dad, and Sam.

He loves both of them fiercely, protectively; he would do anything for either of them.

Most of Dean's life has been spent learning what his father knew; learning how to be the best he could be, to protect the ones that mean the most to him. He hates when either of them hurt, but somehow it hurts him more when Sam hurts.

If anyone ever asked him, Dean would shrug the question off or change the subject, but he watches Sam, worries over how seldom he laughs, how often his sleep is broken by nightmares. He'd do anything to save Sam the pain he's going through, but there isn't anything he can do.

If anyone ever watched him, Dean knows they would see the things he hides deep down inside, tucked away where no one can find them. They would see how he sometimes watches Sam too closely, how his eyes track every movement Sam makes. They would see how Sam is his whole world.

If anyone ever asked him, Dean would probably tell them.

Date: 2006-04-14 05:22 am (UTC)
ext_7751: (dean4)
From: [identity profile] janissa11.livejournal.com
Oh. *swallows* Oh, that was lovely, and that last line -- gah. Oh, Dean.

Date: 2006-04-14 10:18 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mickeym.livejournal.com
When he lets his guard down, his eyes show *everything*. I really love that about him.

*hugs you* Thanks for the feedback, honey.

Date: 2006-04-14 05:33 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] without-me.livejournal.com
Oh, OW!!! My baby. Yes. ::pets him, and you::

Date: 2006-04-14 10:18 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mickeym.livejournal.com
*hugs you* He hurts so pretty. *wry smile* He hurts for Sam, so pretty.

Date: 2006-04-14 05:36 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wtfbrain.livejournal.com
This is lovely. Very Dean. :)

Date: 2006-04-14 10:19 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mickeym.livejournal.com
Thank you! Glad you enjoyed it :)

Date: 2006-04-14 05:39 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] girlmostlikely.livejournal.com
*quietly, reverently*

DAMN. That was just. Breath-takingly beautiful and painful, all at once.

Date: 2006-04-14 10:19 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mickeym.livejournal.com
Thank you so much :) It just sort of was right there in my head, poured out in one fell swoop, as it were. I appreciate the feedback :)

Date: 2006-04-14 05:40 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] girlmostlikely.livejournal.com
I hope you don't mind; I'd really like to friend you. I don't want to miss any more of your SPN writings (or thoughts or fannish stuff).

Ginger
xox

Date: 2006-04-14 10:21 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mickeym.livejournal.com
Friend away :) I'll keep an eye out and friend you back. I don't write nearly as much as I'd like to -- got way too much going on in my life right now -- but SPN seems to have its talons in me pretty firmly *g* As for my thoughts? Well, I'm in the midst of a divorce, so my thoughts are...probably not all that interesting, but you're welcome to them :)

Date: 2006-04-14 07:05 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tallisen.livejournal.com
That's really sweet! :)

Date: 2006-04-14 10:21 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mickeym.livejournal.com
Thank you! :)

Date: 2006-04-14 07:29 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] vodou-blue.livejournal.com
Marvelous! And I love how this can be taken as kinda slashy or canon-ish: that Dean feels parental toward Sam. Fabulous!

Date: 2006-04-14 10:21 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mickeym.livejournal.com
Yeah, I figured it could go either way, but thought I'd warn, just in case. And thanks, I'm glad you enjoyed it :)

Date: 2006-04-14 07:36 am (UTC)
poisontaster: (Dean oh god)
From: [personal profile] poisontaster
Oh, that hurt. In the best possible way, but ow.

Date: 2006-04-14 10:23 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mickeym.livejournal.com
Thank you so much! Yeah, it felt like a big lump in my throat, writing it, and I kept thinking, "Dean!" -- and since usually it's "Sam!", well. *g*

Did that even remotely make sense? Hmm.

Date: 2006-04-14 08:36 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mackeygenius.livejournal.com
They would see how he sometimes watches Sam too closely, how his eyes track every movement Sam makes. They would see how Sam is his whole world.
My favorite lines. Beautiful.

Date: 2006-04-14 10:23 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mickeym.livejournal.com
Thank you so much :) I'm really glad you enjoyed it :)

Date: 2006-04-14 10:10 am (UTC)
mf_luder_xf: (SPN baby brother)
From: [personal profile] mf_luder_xf
Ooo great! ending. :-D

Date: 2006-04-14 10:24 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mickeym.livejournal.com
Thank you :) It's pretty much my own personal belief, right there ;)

Date: 2006-04-14 01:36 pm (UTC)
ext_1843: (supernatural)
From: [identity profile] cereta.livejournal.com
Oh, I like that.

Date: 2006-04-14 10:24 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mickeym.livejournal.com
Thank you! *beams*

Date: 2006-04-14 01:56 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kimannebb.livejournal.com
This was very nice. I loved the angst, loved that while Dean is hiding he is honest with himself. Very good. (Now. Make something longer. *ggggg*)

Date: 2006-04-14 10:25 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mickeym.livejournal.com
Now. Make something longer. *ggggg*

Greedy wench *g*

thanks for the feedback, honey :) It's much appreciated!
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Date: 2006-04-15 08:47 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mickeym.livejournal.com
Thank you! Glad you enjoyed it :)

Date: 2006-04-17 05:59 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jakisbishlygay.livejournal.com
I don't know how its possible, but you just made me love Dean even MORE.

That was wonderful!

Date: 2006-04-25 09:46 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mickeym.livejournal.com
Thank you so much! I'm really glad you enjoyed it :)

Date: 2007-03-10 07:47 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] quarterturn.livejournal.com
Gah. This is so powerful for such a short piece. It really packs a punch at the end there, definitely not expecting it, but it hit me pretty hard.

This works so well even now, almost a year later. Excellent job. :)

Date: 2008-08-02 09:46 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mickeym.livejournal.com
Okay! So I completely missed this comment *frowns* Very sorry about that. I'm glad you enjoyed the story bit, though; that it came across strongly and packed a punch :)

Date: 2008-05-24 03:38 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pepper180.livejournal.com
Ohh....

Poor Dean....

Wants to give everything to make sure Sam is alright, is willing to do anything to ensure Sam's happiness and anyone could tell if they just give him a second look - but nobody is willing to give him the second look...

Just heartbreaking...

Date: 2008-08-02 09:49 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mickeym.livejournal.com
Thank you so much :) It's always wonderful to get feedback on the older stories, so this was especially nice. I'm sorry it's taken me so long to respond, but I'm very appreciative that you took the time to leave a comment :)

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