always there, never gone
Oct. 26th, 2024 01:03 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mickeym(Originally posted to LiveJournal)
Lately, when I get my "kudos" notifications from AO3, I click on the story to re-read it (if it's not a hugely long fic). I'm always amused when it's a Star Trek or Sentinel fic, because that period in my life seems *so long* ago. This journal is 22+ years old, and those stories pre-date this journal.
One of the stories that received a kudos today is one I wrote for SPN Big Bang in 2010. One of the comments I received for that story (that I had to come back to LJ to find/read) was (in part) "OMG Kim, you put them in therapy and fed them s'mores". It made me smile, happy and a little sad at the same time. Fandom was such a HUGE part of my life, for so many years, that there is a lot of happy attached to it.
But I haven't written a word in, god, probably a decade, now. Or close to it, anyway. I've enjoyed a lot of shows and movies, but I can't seem to get fannish about any of them. So many friends have moved on, or just disappeared altogether. There's very little action, like a community, here on LJ. I don't know about DW. I'll likely post this over there, as well. I need to make more of an effort to be social. I have so much of my life tied up in LJ/DW, and in Facebook. Some of you I see there. I'd love to see more of you there. Or, wherever. Where are fannishly-inclined folks meeting, these days? Do I need to get on other social platforms? Tell me where and how, because I really want to be social again. My life seems so very small and sad, and has for quite some time. I'd like to have some of the happy back.
Lately, when I get my "kudos" notifications from AO3, I click on the story to re-read it (if it's not a hugely long fic). I'm always amused when it's a Star Trek or Sentinel fic, because that period in my life seems *so long* ago. This journal is 22+ years old, and those stories pre-date this journal.
One of the stories that received a kudos today is one I wrote for SPN Big Bang in 2010. One of the comments I received for that story (that I had to come back to LJ to find/read) was (in part) "OMG Kim, you put them in therapy and fed them s'mores". It made me smile, happy and a little sad at the same time. Fandom was such a HUGE part of my life, for so many years, that there is a lot of happy attached to it.
But I haven't written a word in, god, probably a decade, now. Or close to it, anyway. I've enjoyed a lot of shows and movies, but I can't seem to get fannish about any of them. So many friends have moved on, or just disappeared altogether. There's very little action, like a community, here on LJ. I don't know about DW. I'll likely post this over there, as well. I need to make more of an effort to be social. I have so much of my life tied up in LJ/DW, and in Facebook. Some of you I see there. I'd love to see more of you there. Or, wherever. Where are fannishly-inclined folks meeting, these days? Do I need to get on other social platforms? Tell me where and how, because I really want to be social again. My life seems so very small and sad, and has for quite some time. I'd like to have some of the happy back.
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Date: 2024-10-26 10:51 pm (UTC)DW is a lot more active than LJ now - there are all kinds of challenges and bingos and things going on all the time, and I'll dip a toe in and read, but...can't write (hopefully not forever, but certainly not right now).
I miss those days, too, so much. I still have my bff from those days, and we talk every day, but I miss the community.
Try fandomcalendar, fan_flashworks, and fancake, to name a few - good luck!
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Date: 2024-10-27 12:34 am (UTC)maybe you'll find some inspiration to try writing again - or at least talk fannishly with folks