mickeym: (spn_sam all alone (3x11))
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Title:Came the Night, Came the End
Pairing: None
Rating: R, for imagery
Word Count: 300
Spoilers/Warnings: Um, none, I guess. This is future!fic
Disclaimer: Sadly, still not mine.
Summary: Sometimes, he remembers.
A/N: [livejournal.com profile] digitalwave posted a rather chilling piece of artwork, Comes the Apocalypse, and my brain went to a really dark place. Well, dark for me, anyway. This isn't a happy piece at all, and it might make more sense if you look at her artwork first. Thanks for reading :)





Time passes differently Here than it did There.

Faster, wetter, and darker, it smolders and burns; minutes like embers waiting to ignite, hours heavy with pain, a conflagration that spreads, smothers, destroys.

Here, time tastes like iron and sounds like misery, hoarse and heavy; made of cries for salvation, for deliverance, for mercy.

He doesn't remember There very well. All he remembers – all he knows – is Here.

Here, where he can bathe in blood, and comb his fingers through entrails, picking and pulling on choice bits, the sound of flesh separating from flesh, thick and wet.

Here, where the screams trickle down over him, warm and comforting, soothing as they echo inside him.

Here he is the day, the night, an eternity of pain shot through with sulfur and brimstone, tinged with smoke and flames and heat.

Here – and everywhere, now – there is no sun, and the only wind comes when the cries of the damned stir the air around them.

But once in a while, when the screams come slower, softer, no longer twining around him like a lover's caress…he remembers.

There, he felt the wind in his hair and the sun on his face. There, he knew tenderness and love; knew the pleasure kisses and caresses could bring, and reveled in them.

There, he knew the purity of joy and the agony of loss, and rejoiced and ached with them.

There, he was human.

There, he was Sam.

He can still pick it out, now and again, one individual cry in amidst the cacophony surrounding him. Hears Sam, Sammy, stop, make it stop.

He doesn't, and he won't, because it never can. Here is how it is now; how it always will be. There is gone, never to be again.

But sometimes…sometimes…he can remember.

And then he weeps.

~fin~

Date: 2009-03-07 07:37 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] fleshflutter.livejournal.com
OOOh that is BLEAK, but I really like how you create that sense of isolation and difference. :)

Date: 2009-03-07 07:41 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] zillahseye.livejournal.com
...meep. *whimper*

Date: 2009-03-07 07:41 pm (UTC)
digitalwave: (Sam - Sympathy for the Devil)
From: [personal profile] digitalwave
Oh my god, sweetie, you humble me so with your words. Thank you, thank you so much. You don't know what it means to me to know that my art brought this about. It's raw, like you said my artwork is. It burns and it hurts in all of the very best ways, just like the thought of them being lost to each other should.

Wow, you've more than made my day. :)

*hugs you hard*

Date: 2009-03-07 07:52 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mickeym.livejournal.com
Thanks, bb :) Honestly, I'm having trouble figuring out how the heck I wrote something like that *g* Me, I'm all about the schmoop and love and sex, and this...isn't. o_O

Date: 2009-03-07 07:53 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mickeym.livejournal.com
Pretty much, yes. *hugs you*

Date: 2009-03-07 07:54 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mickeym.livejournal.com
*hugs you back* I'm glad it worked for you :) It hurt, to look at your artwork, and to write this out -- but it's been stuck in my brain for HOURS, so I felt like I needed to, or I was never going to get it out.

Honestly, I love it when something hits me so hard that I feel inspired, so thank you :)

*snugs*

Date: 2009-03-07 08:25 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] marciaelena.livejournal.com
Dark, disturbing and gorgeous.

Date: 2009-03-07 10:54 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ex-rosegany.livejournal.com
Haunting and heartbreaking and still I find Sam so beautiful...

Date: 2009-03-07 11:27 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lovetheguys.livejournal.com
Noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!

Love, Robin

Date: 2009-03-08 09:53 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tj-smartz.livejournal.com
Ohhhh. I want, yet I really really don't. Especially when Dean is not by his side...

*MEEP*

Date: 2009-03-08 04:33 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] katiebugs18.livejournal.com
Just so heartbreaking. Beautiful but...just so sad. Oh Sammy.

Date: 2009-03-08 05:27 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] labseraph.livejournal.com
Gah.

*topples*

Disturbing thought that Sam would enjoy his reign in hell.

*hides under blanket*

Date: 2009-03-09 12:28 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] marciaelena.livejournal.com
I just wanted to let you know this was recced here (http://community.livejournal.com/spnroundtable/134303.html) at [livejournal.com profile] spnroundtable.

Date: 2009-03-09 05:18 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] xinco.livejournal.com
The worst, the most beautiful fan fiction.
You're an extraordinary writer and the
last line just guts you and leaves you hollow.
I'm adding this to my memories, thank you!

Date: 2009-03-09 09:05 pm (UTC)
goodbyebird: Batman returns: Catwoman seen through a glass window. (SPN Sam what I'm capable of)
From: [personal profile] goodbyebird
What lovely writing! Vivid and visceral. Thanks so much for sharing :)

Date: 2009-03-10 08:54 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lustmordred.livejournal.com
That's really beautiful.

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