it ain't me, babe

[mickeym]

Sorry to everyone who considered my post last night to be spoilery. I won't do it again.

Lots of love and hugs to turps33, umbo and ro_anshi. I wish I could do more than just virtual hugs.

Very belated thank-yous to zortified and verabell for the holiday gifts :) The packages were left at the apartment's office, with no notice to me that they were there. It was just happenstance that I had to call in a work request and the manager told me about them.

No more work until the 26th. I need to file my taxes this weekend. I think the greatest punishment of all is that I seriously doubt I'll be able to make Wincon, now. But it'll definitely cement the lesson I (apparently) needed to learn.

I want to write, but the words are stoppered up inside me. I haven't written anything in over two months. I don't remember the last time I went this long without writing. I don't like it and I don't know how to fix it.

I had a dream last night in which people I thought were friends were standing around me in a circle, making fun of me and teasing/taunting me. This isn't the first time I've had this dream, nor the first time these people were in my dreams, doing something like this. I hate it, I hate that I allow them to still have any kind of power over me.

Ugh, this is a fun post, huh? I guess I'll have to work on that.

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[turps33.livejournal.com]

That's a horrible dream, and thank you. You know you're getting hugs and love in return. <33333333