Pieces of what we could have been, pieces of a shattered dream
Aug. 5th, 2025 05:54 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
beansideI am so tired today and fully annoyed with my bank.
So I had started the account in may, knowing that I needed a brick and mortar bank to deposit the checks from Dad's account into. I deposited one, which as you may remember was an ordeal. They were treating it like it was fraudulent, and I spent 2 hours on the phone. Cue yesterday when Jess got the first payout from her father's death. They deposited the check, and four hours later, I got an email that my account was being closed, because they suspected the check was altered. WTF. I called, and they wanted to talk to Jess. They went over things, and gave them the customer service number of the company the check was drawn off. Since it was 7:30 pm, they were closed, so they couldn't do anything. Jess has to call again today and wait while they verify shit. In the meantime, I don't know whether if it's verified, they'll rescind the closing, or if I need to pull the money as soon as it clears. It's just fucking annoying and I'm rethinking Wells Fargo as my bank. Jess has several more checks coming off their father's accounts, some of which are quite a lot of money, and I don't know if we're going to have to go through this every single fucking time.
As a result, I didn't sleep well last night, and today I am headachey and cranky. We'll see what the morning brings. Either way, once this is settled, I'm going to be calling customer service and ripping some supervisor a new asshole. I'm just thoroughly frustrated and angry. I'll be nice, but I will explain why it was a bad idea to fuck with us.
Aside from the last couple of hours, yesterday was a good day. I worked. It was busy. I made dinner. I didn't get any cleaning done, but I did get my nails painted?
My last manicure was a gel manicure, which fucked my nails the hell up. They look like shit, just beat to hell, and thin. They've been cracking and chipping and I had to cut them all down to nothing. Some are less than nothing. I've been painting them so I don't have to look at them, but it still doesn't look great with all the nicks and dings on them. Whatever polish they used just would not come off. I soaked and used oil, and I still ended up scraping it clear. Never again. Now I just have to wait for them to grow out.
In related news, I've really been enjoying Lakur nail polish. It goes on very smooth, and only a couple of colors have required a second coat. They also have a couple topper polishes that I like very much. One is moonstone, which is a faintly iridescent blueish tint, the other is a clear with little sparkles. Both are adorable.
I'm debating on what color I want to paint them for Friday, when I have my delayed meeting for work. It'll involve going down to the main hospital and spending half a day with my bosses boss. I'm both nervous and looking forward to it. I should be getting my invitation soon that'll tell me where to go. I know I need to stop in the badge office and get a new badge, as mine got lost in our move from one location to the other. It was sent to the old, and no one was every able to retrieve it.
I've got my outfit picked out, a cute secretarial dress and a nice top with flats. Hopefully I'll make a good first impression. I'll make sure my makeup is on point, and try to look good. Then, I just need to turn it on. Definitely need to remember my Vyvanse that day.
Okay, time for me to go forth and get dressed. Everyone have a wonderful Tuesday!
So I had started the account in may, knowing that I needed a brick and mortar bank to deposit the checks from Dad's account into. I deposited one, which as you may remember was an ordeal. They were treating it like it was fraudulent, and I spent 2 hours on the phone. Cue yesterday when Jess got the first payout from her father's death. They deposited the check, and four hours later, I got an email that my account was being closed, because they suspected the check was altered. WTF. I called, and they wanted to talk to Jess. They went over things, and gave them the customer service number of the company the check was drawn off. Since it was 7:30 pm, they were closed, so they couldn't do anything. Jess has to call again today and wait while they verify shit. In the meantime, I don't know whether if it's verified, they'll rescind the closing, or if I need to pull the money as soon as it clears. It's just fucking annoying and I'm rethinking Wells Fargo as my bank. Jess has several more checks coming off their father's accounts, some of which are quite a lot of money, and I don't know if we're going to have to go through this every single fucking time.
As a result, I didn't sleep well last night, and today I am headachey and cranky. We'll see what the morning brings. Either way, once this is settled, I'm going to be calling customer service and ripping some supervisor a new asshole. I'm just thoroughly frustrated and angry. I'll be nice, but I will explain why it was a bad idea to fuck with us.
Aside from the last couple of hours, yesterday was a good day. I worked. It was busy. I made dinner. I didn't get any cleaning done, but I did get my nails painted?
My last manicure was a gel manicure, which fucked my nails the hell up. They look like shit, just beat to hell, and thin. They've been cracking and chipping and I had to cut them all down to nothing. Some are less than nothing. I've been painting them so I don't have to look at them, but it still doesn't look great with all the nicks and dings on them. Whatever polish they used just would not come off. I soaked and used oil, and I still ended up scraping it clear. Never again. Now I just have to wait for them to grow out.
In related news, I've really been enjoying Lakur nail polish. It goes on very smooth, and only a couple of colors have required a second coat. They also have a couple topper polishes that I like very much. One is moonstone, which is a faintly iridescent blueish tint, the other is a clear with little sparkles. Both are adorable.
I'm debating on what color I want to paint them for Friday, when I have my delayed meeting for work. It'll involve going down to the main hospital and spending half a day with my bosses boss. I'm both nervous and looking forward to it. I should be getting my invitation soon that'll tell me where to go. I know I need to stop in the badge office and get a new badge, as mine got lost in our move from one location to the other. It was sent to the old, and no one was every able to retrieve it.
I've got my outfit picked out, a cute secretarial dress and a nice top with flats. Hopefully I'll make a good first impression. I'll make sure my makeup is on point, and try to look good. Then, I just need to turn it on. Definitely need to remember my Vyvanse that day.
Okay, time for me to go forth and get dressed. Everyone have a wonderful Tuesday!
You've been playin' around with magic that is black...
Aug. 4th, 2025 05:51 ambeansideFor music Monday, I bring you Ghost (I know, really? How shocking!
I originally wasn't that fond of this song. Then I saw it in concert, and it's played so playfully and with such joy that I couldn't help but adore it.
This is the audio from the MSG concert. It's not the greatest audio, but it's still pretty entertaining.
Yesterday was a busy and and I am rather tired and sore this morning. I did everything I said I was going to do, except I wasn't so good at protecting my back from the vacuuming, and thus am a wee bit sore.
Brunch and dinner turned out reasonably well. I wasn't an enormous fan of the homemade stuffing, but it wasn't bad. Next time, I may get a food processor to chop the onions, and celery so they're not such large chunks. IT had a good flavor though. I've got actual man made stuffing coming from Sam's club tomorrow, I think. I'm going to use that to stuff the chicken that I'm making. The rest was pretty good.
Special mention of the Dutch baby that has only failed to rise once. Yesterday, it rose beautifully, and was delicious. Recipe can be found right here.. All you really need is a seasoned cast iron pan. I have a 14", so I double the recipe, but the single batch was perfect for an 8" that I started making them in. IT makes a somewhat eggy batter, but not so eggy that Jess doesn't like it. They are the one who requested it, and had two helpings.
I love our new vaccum, it 100% is awesome at getting shit like litter up. I just know that cleaning one small room at a time is my limit. As a result, our room is lovely, No little to then track into our bed.
Today, I shall work, and then I shall figure out dinner. I need to get something out to cook. I'm leaning towards the faux snow crab legs. They were delicious last time, and I could go for something with a little spice. I saute them with old bay abd butter, and they're so tasty.
I need to clean out the big pyrex container so I can put in the leftovers.Right now, it's full of onion soup. I need to get a container of crab meat, so I can make some cream of crab as it gets colder.
But for now, I shall go forth and get myself together. Everyone have the best Monday you can Monday!
I originally wasn't that fond of this song. Then I saw it in concert, and it's played so playfully and with such joy that I couldn't help but adore it.
This is the audio from the MSG concert. It's not the greatest audio, but it's still pretty entertaining.
Yesterday was a busy and and I am rather tired and sore this morning. I did everything I said I was going to do, except I wasn't so good at protecting my back from the vacuuming, and thus am a wee bit sore.
Brunch and dinner turned out reasonably well. I wasn't an enormous fan of the homemade stuffing, but it wasn't bad. Next time, I may get a food processor to chop the onions, and celery so they're not such large chunks. IT had a good flavor though. I've got actual man made stuffing coming from Sam's club tomorrow, I think. I'm going to use that to stuff the chicken that I'm making. The rest was pretty good.
Special mention of the Dutch baby that has only failed to rise once. Yesterday, it rose beautifully, and was delicious. Recipe can be found right here.. All you really need is a seasoned cast iron pan. I have a 14", so I double the recipe, but the single batch was perfect for an 8" that I started making them in. IT makes a somewhat eggy batter, but not so eggy that Jess doesn't like it. They are the one who requested it, and had two helpings.
I love our new vaccum, it 100% is awesome at getting shit like litter up. I just know that cleaning one small room at a time is my limit. As a result, our room is lovely, No little to then track into our bed.
Today, I shall work, and then I shall figure out dinner. I need to get something out to cook. I'm leaning towards the faux snow crab legs. They were delicious last time, and I could go for something with a little spice. I saute them with old bay abd butter, and they're so tasty.
I need to clean out the big pyrex container so I can put in the leftovers.Right now, it's full of onion soup. I need to get a container of crab meat, so I can make some cream of crab as it gets colder.
But for now, I shall go forth and get myself together. Everyone have the best Monday you can Monday!
life is more than sexual combustibility
Aug. 4th, 2025 09:32 ampensnestYesterday was Fruit Day. Beast and I picked
—small plums from the tree next to the patio
—tiny plums from the tree next to that
—large golden plums, possibly greengages, from one of the trees FIL planted. The big purple plums, while a fabulous colour, are not at all soft, and the medium-sized turning-red plums are still rock-like, so they stayed on their respective trees.
—blackberries from the front. I had picked another bowlful from the back garden on Saturday, and frozen them. It's good to have blackberries.
I then cut up the golden plums, stewed them briefly, froze them, and cut up the small plums, ditto. For such a lot of plums they did not take up much space—I have put them in bags inside small boxes, to freeze into blocks, at which point I will reclaim the boxes.
I have used the leftover juice to try and make kombucha, mixed with green tea. We shall see.
Then I made a blackberry and apple crumble. We had some of it for tea.
*
We finished watching Sense8 last night. I am so pleased that the creators had enough notice and were given the space/time to produce a film-length final episode to wrap up a bunch of plot, and indeed to provide an unexpected and very generous dollop of fanservice. I've enjoyed watching this show. The premise is unusual and very well done, and all eight of the core group are interesting in different ways. I like their besties, too. In fact, I cannot point to any one character as my favourite, nor as someone I don't care for. But I do think the prolonged sex scenes were a bit much—not that I object to sex, but when precious little *happens* in a scene apart from writhing nakedness, lingering on it lovingly for long enough to make a proper cup of tea feels like a glitch in the story telling process.
Still. I've reached to point of looking for fic. Does anyone have any recommendations? Has anybody written any plot-without-porn, perchance?
—small plums from the tree next to the patio
—tiny plums from the tree next to that
—large golden plums, possibly greengages, from one of the trees FIL planted. The big purple plums, while a fabulous colour, are not at all soft, and the medium-sized turning-red plums are still rock-like, so they stayed on their respective trees.
—blackberries from the front. I had picked another bowlful from the back garden on Saturday, and frozen them. It's good to have blackberries.
I then cut up the golden plums, stewed them briefly, froze them, and cut up the small plums, ditto. For such a lot of plums they did not take up much space—I have put them in bags inside small boxes, to freeze into blocks, at which point I will reclaim the boxes.
I have used the leftover juice to try and make kombucha, mixed with green tea. We shall see.
Then I made a blackberry and apple crumble. We had some of it for tea.
*
We finished watching Sense8 last night. I am so pleased that the creators had enough notice and were given the space/time to produce a film-length final episode to wrap up a bunch of plot, and indeed to provide an unexpected and very generous dollop of fanservice. I've enjoyed watching this show. The premise is unusual and very well done, and all eight of the core group are interesting in different ways. I like their besties, too. In fact, I cannot point to any one character as my favourite, nor as someone I don't care for. But I do think the prolonged sex scenes were a bit much—not that I object to sex, but when precious little *happens* in a scene apart from writhing nakedness, lingering on it lovingly for long enough to make a proper cup of tea feels like a glitch in the story telling process.
Still. I've reached to point of looking for fic. Does anyone have any recommendations? Has anybody written any plot-without-porn, perchance?
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Aug. 3rd, 2025 05:59 pmturpsIt was a lovely day yesterday, so we decided to get the bus to Durham to see The Naked Gun at the Odeon.
It was okay, some funny parts, but I'm glad it was a very short film because no way could it support anything longer.
We did get to see, and pet, some brilliant dogs. The best being Egg, an English Bulldog who was such a happy, stocky, solid chap who just wanted all the loves. Also, an excellent golden lab on the bus home, a very soft whippet and the most adorable spaniel type puppy we admired from afar.
We had a short walk through the town square and watched a man who was busking by creating an impressive sand sculpture of a dog. Then on the way back to the bus station stopped for chai iced drinks. They'd been promoted as buy one, get one free on the poster in the window. But, it turned out to be the promotion for last month. However, the owner said we could still have them for that price, as it was his fault the posters hadn't been taken down.
Today was the usual grocery shopping and a short walk. We also went to the tip and dropped off more donations at the tip shop, so that was a small amount of clutter gone. Two new to me dresses and a short denim jacket may have also fell into my basket somehow. No idea how that happened...
Storm Floris is due to hit overnight, and of course, we have to go out first thing as James is finally having a CT scan on his elbow. Hopefully, it won't be as windy as forecast and my poor flower shelf doesn't take another battering.
It was okay, some funny parts, but I'm glad it was a very short film because no way could it support anything longer.
We did get to see, and pet, some brilliant dogs. The best being Egg, an English Bulldog who was such a happy, stocky, solid chap who just wanted all the loves. Also, an excellent golden lab on the bus home, a very soft whippet and the most adorable spaniel type puppy we admired from afar.
We had a short walk through the town square and watched a man who was busking by creating an impressive sand sculpture of a dog. Then on the way back to the bus station stopped for chai iced drinks. They'd been promoted as buy one, get one free on the poster in the window. But, it turned out to be the promotion for last month. However, the owner said we could still have them for that price, as it was his fault the posters hadn't been taken down.
Today was the usual grocery shopping and a short walk. We also went to the tip and dropped off more donations at the tip shop, so that was a small amount of clutter gone. Two new to me dresses and a short denim jacket may have also fell into my basket somehow. No idea how that happened...
Storm Floris is due to hit overnight, and of course, we have to go out first thing as James is finally having a CT scan on his elbow. Hopefully, it won't be as windy as forecast and my poor flower shelf doesn't take another battering.
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Aug. 3rd, 2025 12:24 pmnilchanceI haven't posted about the secret project for a bit, between my father's death and top surgery preparations, but I've been poking at it again. I found this song that's almost eerily appropriate for it:
(particularly the part about "the gods we thought were dying were just sharpening their blades" because Penn is doomed to be entangled with gods no matter which universe he's in.)
(particularly the part about "the gods we thought were dying were just sharpening their blades" because Penn is doomed to be entangled with gods no matter which universe he's in.)
The autumnal reaper, the stains of this creeper will last, the shine and the sham entangled
Aug. 3rd, 2025 07:42 ambeansideYet again, I woke up at 7am, and could absolutely not get back to sleep. I tried! Ah well, it'll do. My back was a wee bit sore, so I took some ibuprofen and am waiting for it to kick in. The joys of being 53.
Today shall be relaxing and some cleaning and cooking. First up, shall be brunch. Then, I will relax and then clean, then dinner. I'm debating on making sourdough stuffing for the pork chops. The ones from Sam's club are usually pretty thick and I could slice and stuff them. Might be good. Add in some honey roasted carrots with a tiny bit of chili powder and salt, and it should be delicious. I got the big loaf of sourdough, and sage, thyme and parsley, so why not?
Yesterday was a good day. I did mostly nothing. We got dressed and went to the post office so Jess could mail out some forms, and then came back and had breakfast and then played a game.
The game ended up being super fun, as I had a big boss battle set up. Good lord those were a lot of characters to keep track of! Next session, we have a ton of wrap up to do, and then the players will be deciding which plot hook they want to pick up on. I've got two options, either of which would be good with me. I shall spend time uploading a few maps, so that either way, we're covered. Debating pulling some of the Witchlight maps out of storage and reusing them for good, since they're good depictions of the Feywild. Definitely will reuse the castle maps, as that was super detailed.
After game, we relaxed for a bit, and then we ran out and grabbed dinner. As per usual, we got way too much food, and now I have a Chinese pork "hamburger" for lunch tomorrow, nom nom. Also braised beef and potatoes and plain handpulled noodles, which I can add a little soy and gochujang as a treat.
Tomorrow it's back to work. I need to ask if the meeting for Friday is still on or if it's getting bumped again. Either way, I have my clothes ready. I just need to decide which skirt to wear. Full business, or slightly funky. I love both options.
But first, another day to relax and plot out future outings. The lovelypoisontaster has agreed to join us in November for a brunch at Brunch at Amoora which is a semi-exclusive event. They only hold one brunch per month, and I'm determined to get in for November. I'm just going to haunt those reservations until they become available.
At some point between now and then, I'd like to go for their dinner menu, just to taste the food. I adore Middle Eastern food, so I'm very excited to try it.
Okay, time to go forth and work on waking the hell up. Everyone have a stellar Sunday!
Today shall be relaxing and some cleaning and cooking. First up, shall be brunch. Then, I will relax and then clean, then dinner. I'm debating on making sourdough stuffing for the pork chops. The ones from Sam's club are usually pretty thick and I could slice and stuff them. Might be good. Add in some honey roasted carrots with a tiny bit of chili powder and salt, and it should be delicious. I got the big loaf of sourdough, and sage, thyme and parsley, so why not?
Yesterday was a good day. I did mostly nothing. We got dressed and went to the post office so Jess could mail out some forms, and then came back and had breakfast and then played a game.
The game ended up being super fun, as I had a big boss battle set up. Good lord those were a lot of characters to keep track of! Next session, we have a ton of wrap up to do, and then the players will be deciding which plot hook they want to pick up on. I've got two options, either of which would be good with me. I shall spend time uploading a few maps, so that either way, we're covered. Debating pulling some of the Witchlight maps out of storage and reusing them for good, since they're good depictions of the Feywild. Definitely will reuse the castle maps, as that was super detailed.
After game, we relaxed for a bit, and then we ran out and grabbed dinner. As per usual, we got way too much food, and now I have a Chinese pork "hamburger" for lunch tomorrow, nom nom. Also braised beef and potatoes and plain handpulled noodles, which I can add a little soy and gochujang as a treat.
Tomorrow it's back to work. I need to ask if the meeting for Friday is still on or if it's getting bumped again. Either way, I have my clothes ready. I just need to decide which skirt to wear. Full business, or slightly funky. I love both options.
But first, another day to relax and plot out future outings. The lovely
poisontaster has agreed to join us in November for a brunch at Brunch at Amoora which is a semi-exclusive event. They only hold one brunch per month, and I'm determined to get in for November. I'm just going to haunt those reservations until they become available. At some point between now and then, I'd like to go for their dinner menu, just to taste the food. I adore Middle Eastern food, so I'm very excited to try it.
Okay, time to go forth and work on waking the hell up. Everyone have a stellar Sunday!
We are leaving this city so this is farewell, goodbye Seven Sisters and Saint Jezebel
Aug. 2nd, 2025 07:38 ambeansideIt's Saturday! And as usual, I managed to sleep til about 7am. Go team me. I was up at 5:40am because the cat demanded breakfast, but I went back to sleep for a while.
Yesterday was a good day. Work wasn't crazy, I was able to get some people in, and when it was over, we got to go out.
Well, first I did have my psych appointment, which went fine. I'm doing well, no notes.
Then, we went out to celebrate Jess' graduation. I don't know if I mentioned that, but they finally finished the medical transcription program, graduating with a 97.8%. I'm so very proud of them. We decided to go to Fogo, and had a lovely time eating way more than we really needed to. They had a pork belly with lime and honey that was especially tasty, as was the filet wrapped in bacon. I always say I'm not going to fill up from the market table, but then I get up there, and there's the roasted garlic and marinated mushrooms and artichokes, and I end up getting some every time. Honestly, I should just go for lunch from the market table now and then. I could 100% make a meal out of that.
Today, we're going to go forth and visit the post office to mail some stuff back to one of the many places that Jess' dad had accounts. Maybe I'll make some breakfast. We'll see. I might do it tomorrow when we don't have a game. I suppose I could make it 2 times, but that seems excessive.
Tomorrow, we have nothing planned, and it's definitely going to be a blend of doing nothing and some cleaning. Vacuuming will need to happen.
Maybe I'll make a pool trip, I don't know. We'll see.
Okay, on that note, I'm going to wrap up and consider what I want to do as far as food. Everyone have an excellent Saturday!
Yesterday was a good day. Work wasn't crazy, I was able to get some people in, and when it was over, we got to go out.
Well, first I did have my psych appointment, which went fine. I'm doing well, no notes.
Then, we went out to celebrate Jess' graduation. I don't know if I mentioned that, but they finally finished the medical transcription program, graduating with a 97.8%. I'm so very proud of them. We decided to go to Fogo, and had a lovely time eating way more than we really needed to. They had a pork belly with lime and honey that was especially tasty, as was the filet wrapped in bacon. I always say I'm not going to fill up from the market table, but then I get up there, and there's the roasted garlic and marinated mushrooms and artichokes, and I end up getting some every time. Honestly, I should just go for lunch from the market table now and then. I could 100% make a meal out of that.
Today, we're going to go forth and visit the post office to mail some stuff back to one of the many places that Jess' dad had accounts. Maybe I'll make some breakfast. We'll see. I might do it tomorrow when we don't have a game. I suppose I could make it 2 times, but that seems excessive.
Tomorrow, we have nothing planned, and it's definitely going to be a blend of doing nothing and some cleaning. Vacuuming will need to happen.
Maybe I'll make a pool trip, I don't know. We'll see.
Okay, on that note, I'm going to wrap up and consider what I want to do as far as food. Everyone have an excellent Saturday!
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Aug. 1st, 2025 02:26 pmturpsIt's been a while but to catch up. I finally got to see Fantastic 4 on Sunday, and really enjoyed it. We were supposed to go on Saturday originally, but realised we'd double booked ourselves with a day out that had been organised with James' team from work. Everyone was going to meet at Tynemouth, and while meeting new-to-me people at the beach wasn't first on my list of enjoyable things to do, I was still looking forward to it -- a little anyway.
But, in the end, that didn't happen as James had an AMC flair on Friday and had to come home from work. He's got a bit of a clawed hand atm, and was in his wheelchair when we went out at the weekend, but will be fine. Really, all that helps is time, and he's been to the doctors on Monday, who wanted to sign him off work for two weeks, but settled for one for now, extending if needed.
We had gone to MetroCentre to see Fantastic 4, and they were having a FanFest thing going on with various cos players and fannish stalls going on. We got some fun photos, and checked out lots of merch, and it was a good way to spend some time before the film. I posted some photos on Insta if people are interested.
I watched The Old Guard 2 last week and it was okay. I've seen no one discuss it though, unless I've missed those posts, which is surprising considering how popular the first film seemed to be.
I was at class last Wednesday, and there was new equipment, a big box that was about thigh height. ( cut for length about class and gym stuff )
Other things this week. I went with James to the limb centre so he could have new straps put on his legs. Then yesterday we took my MiL out for lunch, just staying locally, but it was a nice day.
But, in the end, that didn't happen as James had an AMC flair on Friday and had to come home from work. He's got a bit of a clawed hand atm, and was in his wheelchair when we went out at the weekend, but will be fine. Really, all that helps is time, and he's been to the doctors on Monday, who wanted to sign him off work for two weeks, but settled for one for now, extending if needed.
We had gone to MetroCentre to see Fantastic 4, and they were having a FanFest thing going on with various cos players and fannish stalls going on. We got some fun photos, and checked out lots of merch, and it was a good way to spend some time before the film. I posted some photos on Insta if people are interested.
I watched The Old Guard 2 last week and it was okay. I've seen no one discuss it though, unless I've missed those posts, which is surprising considering how popular the first film seemed to be.
I was at class last Wednesday, and there was new equipment, a big box that was about thigh height. ( cut for length about class and gym stuff )
Other things this week. I went with James to the limb centre so he could have new straps put on his legs. Then yesterday we took my MiL out for lunch, just staying locally, but it was a nice day.
It's the words that were never spoken that echoes through the times
Aug. 1st, 2025 05:59 ambeansideIt's Friday!! One more day of work, then 2 glorious days off. I'm going to sleep til at least 7 (no matter what the cat says) both days! I know that doesn't sound like very late, but I normally get up between 5:00am-5:30am, so it's actually not bad. And I'm going to relax and have game on Saturday and do some cleaning on Sunday.
Tonight, unfortunately, due one of my player's cancelled flight with all the rain and storms yesterday, our game tonight had to be cancelled. Both Jess and I am sad, so we're going to go out for dinner. Where we're going out to dinner is up in the air, because I am indecisive and want Jess to have the best time because this was their favorite game that got cancelled. I'm waffling between Fogo de Chao or Venetian Italian Eatery. Both sound good. I will see which Jess would prefer.
Tomorrow, barring calamity, we have Arvandor, which I'm looking forward to. I left them at the beginning of battle, that they should be able to win easily. But, I have a few tricks up my sleeve that should make things interesting. I'm looking forward to springing it on them. It'll probably be the near-end of this arc, but there's more to come. I've got some more maps to source and upload for the next part.
I love sourcing maps. I mostly use https://www.czepeku.com/ for my maps, with assists from other map makers and sometime google search when I have a very particular map that I need.
Sunday, I definitely need to vacuum, in small stages so my back doesn't get pissy. And do some tidying. The house is a little raggedy right now, and I want to pretty it up a bit. It's nothing overwhelming, just need to pickup and put shit where it belongs.
Yesterday was busy. I did a lot of calling people and trying to work them in at places. It worked out well, at least. I got a lot of people in. I expect today to be more of the same. Usually my counterpart is off, so I get all the callbacks.
I'm still on my Ghost kick. At some point, I'll stop randomly singing snippets of their music. I showed Jess the frankly weird video for Dance Macabre. It's kind of wild, setting up the original lore for Ghost--Sister Imperator and the first Papa Nihil's meeting. The romance is kind of sweet in a weird way.
(Some weird imagery and vampiric violence.)
And on that weird little note, I shall go forth and get dressed. Everyone have a fantastic Friday!
Tonight, unfortunately, due one of my player's cancelled flight with all the rain and storms yesterday, our game tonight had to be cancelled. Both Jess and I am sad, so we're going to go out for dinner. Where we're going out to dinner is up in the air, because I am indecisive and want Jess to have the best time because this was their favorite game that got cancelled. I'm waffling between Fogo de Chao or Venetian Italian Eatery. Both sound good. I will see which Jess would prefer.
Tomorrow, barring calamity, we have Arvandor, which I'm looking forward to. I left them at the beginning of battle, that they should be able to win easily. But, I have a few tricks up my sleeve that should make things interesting. I'm looking forward to springing it on them. It'll probably be the near-end of this arc, but there's more to come. I've got some more maps to source and upload for the next part.
I love sourcing maps. I mostly use https://www.czepeku.com/ for my maps, with assists from other map makers and sometime google search when I have a very particular map that I need.
Sunday, I definitely need to vacuum, in small stages so my back doesn't get pissy. And do some tidying. The house is a little raggedy right now, and I want to pretty it up a bit. It's nothing overwhelming, just need to pickup and put shit where it belongs.
Yesterday was busy. I did a lot of calling people and trying to work them in at places. It worked out well, at least. I got a lot of people in. I expect today to be more of the same. Usually my counterpart is off, so I get all the callbacks.
I'm still on my Ghost kick. At some point, I'll stop randomly singing snippets of their music. I showed Jess the frankly weird video for Dance Macabre. It's kind of wild, setting up the original lore for Ghost--Sister Imperator and the first Papa Nihil's meeting. The romance is kind of sweet in a weird way.
(Some weird imagery and vampiric violence.)
And on that weird little note, I shall go forth and get dressed. Everyone have a fantastic Friday!
It's the words that were never spoken that echoes through the times
Jul. 31st, 2025 05:54 ambeansideWell, that sucked. Yesterday I woke up with a bit of a headache and it just never really went away. I ended up leaving work at 12, and napping to no avail. I still have a little headache this morning, but it's moved to the other side of my face, so hopefully this one will go away through judicious pain reliever use.
I cancelled game and just relaxed last night, because there was no chance of me concentrating.
After I napped for a little while, we watched the concert/lore movie Ghost put out last year. I'd watched it with Jess when it came out on video last year. It was my first real introduction to the band, because I figured if Jess wanted to see them live, I should know what they did. Most of it went over my head last time, but I was very engrossed this time. And of course, I knew most of the music, which helped.
So part of the mystique is that there have been five lead singers (all the same dude, in different makeup or a mask). They each are the Pope of a shadowy unnamed Satanic Organization. Normally, after an album or two, that "Papa," as he's called, will die, making room for a new somehow related Papa. The last one, who was forced to be Cardinal for a cycle to prove his worth was Copia. He was eventually promoted to Papa Emeritus, and finished out a second cycle. Everyone expected him to die at the end of the movie, but instead his mother died, making way for him to ascend to the head of the shadowy organization, becoming Frater Imperator. The new Papa, V, is Papa Perpetua.
Perpetua is who we saw. The last few Papas sung in full face masks, which the lead singer says is like trying to play soccer in flip flops. Perpetua wears a half mask and makeup, which he finds to be much better. Perpetua is supposed to be Copia's twin brother, who only their mother knew about. Copia hates him. He popped the V key off his computer so as to avoid his brother's symbol.
Anyhow, there's footage of the twins playing in the movie, and one is dark haired and one is tow headed. So it is now my headcanon that Perpetua wants to be accepted so badly that he dyed his hair to look more like Copia. And that makes me happy.
Today, I just have work, and then I may make some cookies. I could really go for some soft baked snickerdoodles.
I'm looking forward to the weekend. We have Frostmaiden on Friday, then I'm off on Saturday, and then Arvandor at 12:30. It's been weeks upon weeks since we played either.
And on that note, I'm going to go forth and put on pants. Everyone have an outstanding Thursday!
I cancelled game and just relaxed last night, because there was no chance of me concentrating.
After I napped for a little while, we watched the concert/lore movie Ghost put out last year. I'd watched it with Jess when it came out on video last year. It was my first real introduction to the band, because I figured if Jess wanted to see them live, I should know what they did. Most of it went over my head last time, but I was very engrossed this time. And of course, I knew most of the music, which helped.
So part of the mystique is that there have been five lead singers (all the same dude, in different makeup or a mask). They each are the Pope of a shadowy unnamed Satanic Organization. Normally, after an album or two, that "Papa," as he's called, will die, making room for a new somehow related Papa. The last one, who was forced to be Cardinal for a cycle to prove his worth was Copia. He was eventually promoted to Papa Emeritus, and finished out a second cycle. Everyone expected him to die at the end of the movie, but instead his mother died, making way for him to ascend to the head of the shadowy organization, becoming Frater Imperator. The new Papa, V, is Papa Perpetua.
Perpetua is who we saw. The last few Papas sung in full face masks, which the lead singer says is like trying to play soccer in flip flops. Perpetua wears a half mask and makeup, which he finds to be much better. Perpetua is supposed to be Copia's twin brother, who only their mother knew about. Copia hates him. He popped the V key off his computer so as to avoid his brother's symbol.
Anyhow, there's footage of the twins playing in the movie, and one is dark haired and one is tow headed. So it is now my headcanon that Perpetua wants to be accepted so badly that he dyed his hair to look more like Copia. And that makes me happy.
Today, I just have work, and then I may make some cookies. I could really go for some soft baked snickerdoodles.
I'm looking forward to the weekend. We have Frostmaiden on Friday, then I'm off on Saturday, and then Arvandor at 12:30. It's been weeks upon weeks since we played either.
And on that note, I'm going to go forth and put on pants. Everyone have an outstanding Thursday!
You are cast out from the heavens to the ground, blackened feathers falling down
Jul. 30th, 2025 05:54 ambeansideI slept like a rock last night. It was lovely, and I feel much better today.
It's kind of surprising, since yesterday afternoon, I was ready to claw my face off. First, I had a bad call. I fucked up getting info at the beginning, and had an auto fail. I have done it a couple of times before, and I fucking hate it every time. It feels like a personal failing. Then, the dog wouldn't go out for me. Then Jess was upset with themselves for not knowing how a notary works, even though they've never done a notary. And the dog was barky and it just had me on overstim anxiety. I took some meds and they got me through the rest of the day.
Of course, then in the afternoon I discovered a new thing. Hopkins has a concierge service for important/rich people, called a concierge service. And I've spoken with the doctor over there a few times when she called in to get a patient scheduled. And once I had to see how I could work things, and when pressed, I gave her my direct number. And the motherfucker gave it out to a patient! I'm sitting there on the phone with a patient when I get another call. I call back after I finish doing my actual job, and yup. It's a patient calling me directly. According to them, Dr. Clever says I'm "the only helpful one in the call center, and she wished I scheduled for more depts." Which, great compliment, but no thank you. I'm not your personal flying monkey. I did not sign up to be a concierge radiology scheduler.
I'm debating on letting my manager know. I may wait to see if it happens again or if this was a one off. Concierge is a big dept that makes a lot of money, and if it came to a throwdown, I don't know that we would win.
I'd prefer to keep it as not my circus, not my monkeys, but I fear that I do know the clowns.
After that, I made dinner and went to bed, seeing as I was still tired from not sleeping two nights before.
And I realized that I misquoted Brennan yesterday. The full quote is ""In the same way your heart feels and your mind thinks, you, mortal beings, are the instrument by which the universe cares. If you choose to care, then the universe cares. If you don't, then it doesn't." I need to get that tattooeed somewhere. It's a bit long, so I don't think they could do the forearm. Oh well, I'll see what the artist says once I book a consult. Sometimes, DMs pull the best quotes out of thin air while they're DMing.
Tonight, we have a game, assuming everyone is able to play. The heat is really kicking everyone's asses, especially our player who takes public transportation to work. Though when I take Yoda out, it's like instant migraine, so it's not doing me great either.
I am looking forward to cooler weather soon.
We'll have been in the apartment for 7 months tomorrow. That's a little bit bonkers. It feels like we've been here forever. It's just home now. The house is a distant memory. It cost us 10k to get rid of it, but it was worth it.
Okay, time to go forth and get myself together. Everyone have an amazing Wednesday!
It's kind of surprising, since yesterday afternoon, I was ready to claw my face off. First, I had a bad call. I fucked up getting info at the beginning, and had an auto fail. I have done it a couple of times before, and I fucking hate it every time. It feels like a personal failing. Then, the dog wouldn't go out for me. Then Jess was upset with themselves for not knowing how a notary works, even though they've never done a notary. And the dog was barky and it just had me on overstim anxiety. I took some meds and they got me through the rest of the day.
Of course, then in the afternoon I discovered a new thing. Hopkins has a concierge service for important/rich people, called a concierge service. And I've spoken with the doctor over there a few times when she called in to get a patient scheduled. And once I had to see how I could work things, and when pressed, I gave her my direct number. And the motherfucker gave it out to a patient! I'm sitting there on the phone with a patient when I get another call. I call back after I finish doing my actual job, and yup. It's a patient calling me directly. According to them, Dr. Clever says I'm "the only helpful one in the call center, and she wished I scheduled for more depts." Which, great compliment, but no thank you. I'm not your personal flying monkey. I did not sign up to be a concierge radiology scheduler.
I'm debating on letting my manager know. I may wait to see if it happens again or if this was a one off. Concierge is a big dept that makes a lot of money, and if it came to a throwdown, I don't know that we would win.
I'd prefer to keep it as not my circus, not my monkeys, but I fear that I do know the clowns.
After that, I made dinner and went to bed, seeing as I was still tired from not sleeping two nights before.
And I realized that I misquoted Brennan yesterday. The full quote is ""In the same way your heart feels and your mind thinks, you, mortal beings, are the instrument by which the universe cares. If you choose to care, then the universe cares. If you don't, then it doesn't." I need to get that tattooeed somewhere. It's a bit long, so I don't think they could do the forearm. Oh well, I'll see what the artist says once I book a consult. Sometimes, DMs pull the best quotes out of thin air while they're DMing.
Tonight, we have a game, assuming everyone is able to play. The heat is really kicking everyone's asses, especially our player who takes public transportation to work. Though when I take Yoda out, it's like instant migraine, so it's not doing me great either.
I am looking forward to cooler weather soon.
We'll have been in the apartment for 7 months tomorrow. That's a little bit bonkers. It feels like we've been here forever. It's just home now. The house is a distant memory. It cost us 10k to get rid of it, but it was worth it.
Okay, time to go forth and get myself together. Everyone have an amazing Wednesday!