mickeym

I am behind on reading the bigbangs. When I saw this story, I was intrigued by the warning so I clicked it. When I read it, I was like, "OH NO! I can't read this fic, it'll break my heart." So like the masochist that I am, I decided to look at the first chapter. And I couldn't. stop. reading. even though I was devastated and KNEW this was going to end with me hurt. I fell in love with the beauty and simplicity of Dean and Sam. Their love was so tangible. When Dean enlisted I felt the tension and fear. I loved how you switched to using their letters to tell their story and then BAM, you just cut to Dean's death. It honestly felt like what happens when someone dies. It was just so unexpected and sad and it broke me and reminded me so much of losing a loved one. The reaction of Sam was spot on. It really took my breath away how perfectly you captured that. I was expecting it to hurt, but I wasn't expecting it to be so real. So I kept reading and reading and hurting and feeling the despair and then you go and end it with Dean not being dead and with me smiling and feeling so much relief and love. Thank you for giving this a happy ending. I don't know why I felt the need to babble on this much about this story but it really had an effect on me and I just loved the entire thing even it was hurting me.