Damn. This story is fucking epic. It broke my heart and it gave me such pleasure!
i adored the sweet uncertainty of Sam in the beginning. i love the confidence he has in their relationship when it finally comes. Sam's voice is amazing in this story. It endears Sam. The thrill of falling in love, and the joy of spending time with the first love. It makes me remember falling in love, makes me remember the fear of being discovered and the rush of pleasure that came with the return of feelings. It's a magical thing, and the prose, your talent, you captured it beautifully!
i love the way he faithfully believes in Dean, even when Dean isn't so sure of himself. Sam loves Dean. And there's no question that Dean loves Sam. But i love the way he's trying to protect Sam, even from himself. The time they lived in wasn't friendly to homosexuality. And Dean understood that, he accepted that, and he wanted to protect Sam from any kind of hatred that might fall on him because of it. Sam didn't always see it, which was good, his poor obliviousness. He just wants Dean. And Dean, in his insecurity, is perfect. You managed to capture just the right mix of Dean's cocky attitude and his private self-consciousness that he doesn't ever show anyone.
I love that you took they're sexual relationship slowly. Don't get me wrong. The sex was delicious and hot. But i liked that you were slow to get it there for them. They're boys, in an era when masculinity and femininity are touted. And they both have the hang-ups that come with that, Dean moreso than Sam, but it's still a hangup. And it wasn't like they had a lot of experience talking to other gay men who would give them advice. The slow progression is realistic, and it's beautiful. It's what makes the sexual bits so much more important. So much more meaningful.
i love that it was careful between them both. i love the way they worked together. This goes along with the sex thing. They were careful to protect each other and themselves. They didn't want to bring Bobby's wrath down on them, and they didn't want to make the townsfolk have anything to ostracize them. They're careful to maintain the expected facade, but they move the relationship on. It's beautiful.
i love the way that you broke my heart with the war (even though i knew it was coming). It was something that was beautifully brought around. It was carefully handled, and it was respectfully dealt with. Which is incredibly appreciated. That the boys sent each other letters, that was so perfect. i enjoyed reading them, especially the different voices in the letters- Sam's was more carefully thought out. Dean's was quick and dirty, enough time to get his words down and get the letters out, just to make sure that Sam didn't go without.
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i adored the sweet uncertainty of Sam in the beginning. i love the confidence he has in their relationship when it finally comes. Sam's voice is amazing in this story. It endears Sam. The thrill of falling in love, and the joy of spending time with the first love. It makes me remember falling in love, makes me remember the fear of being discovered and the rush of pleasure that came with the return of feelings. It's a magical thing, and the prose, your talent, you captured it beautifully!
i love the way he faithfully believes in Dean, even when Dean isn't so sure of himself. Sam loves Dean. And there's no question that Dean loves Sam. But i love the way he's trying to protect Sam, even from himself. The time they lived in wasn't friendly to homosexuality. And Dean understood that, he accepted that, and he wanted to protect Sam from any kind of hatred that might fall on him because of it. Sam didn't always see it, which was good, his poor obliviousness. He just wants Dean. And Dean, in his insecurity, is perfect. You managed to capture just the right mix of Dean's cocky attitude and his private self-consciousness that he doesn't ever show anyone.
I love that you took they're sexual relationship slowly. Don't get me wrong. The sex was delicious and hot. But i liked that you were slow to get it there for them. They're boys, in an era when masculinity and femininity are touted. And they both have the hang-ups that come with that, Dean moreso than Sam, but it's still a hangup. And it wasn't like they had a lot of experience talking to other gay men who would give them advice. The slow progression is realistic, and it's beautiful. It's what makes the sexual bits so much more important. So much more meaningful.
i love that it was careful between them both. i love the way they worked together. This goes along with the sex thing. They were careful to protect each other and themselves. They didn't want to bring Bobby's wrath down on them, and they didn't want to make the townsfolk have anything to ostracize them. They're careful to maintain the expected facade, but they move the relationship on. It's beautiful.
i love the way that you broke my heart with the war (even though i knew it was coming). It was something that was beautifully brought around. It was carefully handled, and it was respectfully dealt with. Which is incredibly appreciated. That the boys sent each other letters, that was so perfect. i enjoyed reading them, especially the different voices in the letters- Sam's was more carefully thought out. Dean's was quick and dirty, enough time to get his words down and get the letters out, just to make sure that Sam didn't go without.
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