Dean outside, begging for help with tears in his eyes

This was like whoa. I had just rewatched Croatoan a few days ago (no clue why) and it resonated big time. With Dean locking himself in with Sam, shrugging off the whole imminent death thing, with lots of "it's okay. I'm tired. It would be nice to just rest, stop fighting" etc. etc. I guess he wasn't lying. *sniff*

How are these guys still functional, at all? Seriously.

I guess that they really aren't. Walking wounded mostly and just too damned stubborn to die. *sobs*